CAAAAMP!

Judging from the title, you'd be dumb to not know that this post is entirely on a camp that i just got back from, say...2 days ago? Yeap. It was le GB camp! Being in the GB, i've had to attend camps EVERY YEAR without fail or my promotion would be delayed. Thank God i'm already staff sergeant (HEH) and this camp was say, 10% optional for me but since its the last camp i'm gonna attend with my batch, why not go for it? So yeah I was whining, and contemplating to sprain my ankle on purpose the day/night before camp because it was reallyyyyyy sian. Sian until cannot sian. But i still woke up the next day at 6.30am and dutifully put on my uniform and grabbed my camp bags and reported to campsite (church) at 7.45am SHARP. -____-

The camp went better than i expected it to be because most of the time, we-the sec4s-were doing our own thing cos the officers were always busy with the juniors. And by that, I also mean the sec3s. Soo, while they were doing things like DRILLS, we were slacking around like a boss, drinking cold water while they were standing under the sun AFTER A HIKE. >:D We didn't have any meal duties so that means no rushing during meal times to cleanup afterward, or rush down from any activities to prepare the food and have our mealtime reduced. (I'm a really slow eater....) AND we didn't have to squeeze and rush like mad dogs during bathing time cos we get to bathe later! Although suffered the aftermath of wind + cold water.... but yeah, really enjoyed my time this year. Perks of being a senior. Nyeheheh.

Day1: Touch Rugby. Glaring sun, thus the pose. (CLARE Y SO CUTE)

 

Day1(night): Teambuilding. What I'm holding actually has an egg in it. Dropped if from 4th floor and NO CRACKS. Team spirit: PASS

 

 

Day2: Just got back from hike (:

 Yup. Summary of my first 2days with the pics i really liked. (: nothing much on 3rd day though. Gonna attend another camp on friday! Its twinneh's church camp. Got a feeling I'll be dead tired by the end of this week...but oh wells, its the holidays! I should do myself some justice! Play hard, work hard. Right..?

#friends #food #fun

Yesterday was Mr Tham's solemnisation. Being one of the teachers i really admire and look up to, friends (R.O.A), clique decided to go to his big day. Went after church, met up with le twinz to get him a card and met up with the rest of the group later on.

Mr Tham's really sweet because after they said all the "I Dos", he sang a song to his wife, which was really sweet. Could see he was nervous but, it was cool. The hotel was damn high-class too. :O after the solemnisation ended, went to clarke quay to meet Rachel and Gek Ting for dinner.

Had initially decided on a sushi buffet but it was a bloody $31.00++ -_-. Hell to the no would i spend that much on a meal. I mean, it is an all you can eat buffet but there's no way i can eat up to over $31.00! So we walked around and decided on something else instead. But it was all good in the end.

After a filled tummy, decided to walk by the river (which is bloody nice btw,) and I got fascinated by all the lights. Took photos, and we went down to the pub areas too. The pubs had really nice and bright lighting and some shops had tables outside with little candles in candle holders for people to dine there. So pretty. Prolly sound like a kid right now but thats only because I haven't been to such places before! And I finally know how shisha (did i spell it right?) smells like. Didn't know that was shisha till Aloy told us.
"Can you smell that sweet fruity smell?"
"Yeah, is someone eating sweets?"
"No lah that's shisha. See those pipe thingy?"

OHH so thats shisha.

Took more photos of the lights and decos and there was a little stall that sells masks and jewellry. The masks were the ones that caught my eye. They were so pretty I wish i could take a photo of it. But photography wasn't allowed so....

It was really nice to spend a sunday night with the people I love and not receving any "Where are you now?" or "What time are you coming home?" messages and phonecalls from ze parents really made it even better. I know that I have a curfew and its really not safe for a tiny person like me to be walking around cos its not safe. So i try not to come home after 11. AND i texted le momz when I was on my way home. (: #responsible. Now that everyone's working and there's no more school, its really difficult to meet up with friends. Even with whatsapp and instant messaging, its not quite the same anymore.

All in all, it was a really nice night. (':

(/^o^)/

So nice!

Taking A Breather...

National exams finally over, got a part time job! Its kinda weird to not mug for anything anymore. The feeling of waking up every morning and plan a timetable for the subjects that has to be done mentally is gone and huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders. Going to poly next year means everything to me. I don't think I can make it for the big O's. I really don't have that kind of energy to keep me going anymore. Or maybe its because I'm getting too used to this free&easy lifestyle?

Class chalet tmr. Can't wait. Just a few thingy bothering me right now. Things like me being too big a coward to face my own fears and get over my paranoia. Its like this fear is eating me up from the inside, slowly devouring my flesh and crunching my bones, sucking me dry.

People write about how they swoon over boys and how boys just sweep em off their feet. But I wonder if any guy ever scared a girl to an extend she builds a wall around her to not let anyone in and to not let herself out? The enitre daryl thing bugged me for more than a year and I always get freaked out by people that show the tiniest resemblance to his personality. And then I shun that poor lad and end up hurting him. Close friends can be guys too but it really sucks when I realised that I've actually hurt the people that care a lot about me. And why? Because I can't face my fear. Because I'm too weak to. Because I got hurt.

Such a coward.

Tmr is the class chalet and I don't want to ruin it for everyone because the boy I hurt due to my selfishness is going to be there. And he is going to want answers. Answers that I cannot give because I don't know what to say. I may make this sound like a big deal and maybe a month or two I re-read this and flinch because I was so bloody stupid and immature. But I just feel like I have to get this off my chest and what better way to do so than to do it here? I really didn't mean for this to happen, everything just spiralled out of control.

Sometimes I look at the things I've done, and ask myself 'how much shit have I gotten myself into?' and the answer to that is: Enough to bury me alive. Maybe one day I can't take all this shit and put a bullet through my skull, someone will chance upon this and see why I had to what I did.

MIA

Hey dear blog, sorry to have gone MIA for such a long time! So many thing's been happening and of course, with the national exams just round the corner, I honestly didn't have time to update. -blows dust-

Okay, first up, my 16th birthday was celebrated with my friends and they gave me a huge bag of presents and a helium filled balloon. Had to take the train home that day so it was pretty awkward. Didn't have time to take photos, but I practically got everything I liked. Aww.. ('; love my bbygirls so much.

And last Friday, got back my chinese O level results. Got a A2 for my written paper and a distinction for my oral and listening. Yay! The scary part? I dreamt that I got such grades! Apparently my A2 isn't good enough for the school so I do need to retake it at the end of the year. An A1 is only 5 marks more that an A2. So why not?

Thats all for now, fucking need a shopping spree BECAUSE THE SCHOOL FINALLY HAS PROM!

Hehe. kaaaayyy

BREATHE

Hai, how's everybardee doing so far? So many things going on now. Oh gosh. Ended my Preliminary Examination 1 awhile back. So that probably explains the hiatus. THAT and I think I must've forgotten about this site for awhile. Hohoho. Anyway, last week (or was it before that..) I sat for my O Levels Chinese Oral. Oh manzxc, I screwed up big time. I kept stammering, I couldn't think of replies fast enough, couldn't really understand my examiner's questions. And all my answers that I thought of in my head were in English so I had a mini panic attack trying to translate all the words. Hmmm.... But I've decided to put all that behind my and just move forward.

So after our prelims, which ended earlier than majority of the cohort, my class had 2 days off of school! Monday was a public holiday and there was no school for us on Tuesday. (WHEE) So I spent my Monday at home doing art and watched Spiderman with le family. (OMG, Andrew Garfield makes me melt) and went to celebrate Cheryl Lim's birthday on Tuesday.

Oh mannnn, talking about that, it was an epic day. We had initially planned the outing on Monday but then CL couldn't make it so we shifted it to the next day. Thenthen, we had planned to fly kites! But when I woke up that morning, it was gloomy and dark. WTF. Disappointing much. So we changed the plan to renting movies and chilling at Hay's. Watched Vampire Suck and The Cat (A Korean horror show) I'd say, my clique is weird. Our tastes in music, books, movies and clothes are different. I'm more of an anti-chick flick/romance, action/horror/thrill (for movies), anti-laces (for clothes), anti-romance (for books) kinda girl. I'm more of a action/horror/thrill/spikes/skulls/rock/zombie kinda person. But my clique tend to be the opposite. Then there are a few of us that are neutral. So, imagine the scene of 5 of us deciding on a movie to watch. It was pretty hilarious.

Today's Eileen's birthday, went all over Nex to get the stuffs and surprised her after orals. Feel really guilty for forgetting her birthday for 2 years straight. (IKR, what kind of friends are we...) I srsly hope she likes today's surprise! Anyway, hope you guys are okay. (Are you guys even human??)

xoxox

Only Human

Y'know that kinda feeling when you're really expecting something and then suddenly the plan changes and you just lose that something that you've been looking forward to? That kind of feeling where you literally feel your heart sink and hit rock bottom and you just wanna find a comfy corner to just suck it all up.

I hate that. I hate anticipating for something and I know that I can't help but to do that sometimes. Like, that kind of disappointment just, pisses the hell out of you. Urgh. I don't know why but I'm feeling this way over something minor. Something really, really tiny. But I guess because I just don't have the time to do the things I like to do anymore, any chance to do something exciting (even if its just a trip to the grocery shop) would really be the highlight of my day. And I dunno, if there were to be a change of plans, I'd just, I dunno, feel really really terrible. #thingsihate

I'm not perfect, I'm no saint, I can be really unreasonable at times. The things that I get angry over might be trivial to you guys. But hey, I'm only human right?

Frankly speaking, if I were to make a list of all the things that I hate, then, its gonna be longer than the Great Wall Of China, for sure. But seriously, I can't stand it when people do this:
"OMGOMGOMG GOT SOMETHING IMPORTANT TO TELL YOUU!!"
"WHAT WHAT WHAT??"
"Uh...hmm..nothing/y'know what? Nevermind."

Like, #dafuq? Don't make the matter sound so important in the first place when all you're going to do is waste my energy thinking about the many thousand worst-case scenarios! I hate it, seriously. This has to be the top few of #thingsihate. Some people might find it funny but, I DON'T, dammit. Urgh, feeling so pissed right now. Might just go on a verbal rampage on the next person that pushes the wrong buttons. Or some people would just go all "OMG I FOUND OUT SOMETHING SURPRISING!" and then when you ask them what it is, they tell you shit like "Ahhh, nevermind, I'm afraid it'll affect your mood." C'mon, don't be a coward, just tell me straight up to my bloody face.

I mean, c'mon. You make the thing sound so serious and then you just brush it off with a "Oh, nevermind..." statement. Hello, am I supposed to take you seriously ever again?! I'm not acting this way because I'm pissed. Joyous mood or not, I hate it when people do such things to me.

If you didn't take it seriously in the first place, then maybe I never will take you seriously ever again.

Happy Birthday Jing Hui!

Today, I had prolly one of the greatest day so far this week. (: Had some really bad days but today, an outing with all of my girls just made me feel so much better and so much more blessed. (':

Had a mundane morning and met up with the girls at Farrer Park at 5. But I volunteered to get the cake and thus I had to go early. Met up with Cheryl Lim at Serangoon and bounced to and fro from the various bakeries to get the cake. We almost got a durian cake! But in the end we got a pink strawberry cake for the birthday girl although all the other chocolate cakes looked goooood. (;

Before I saw CL, there was this guy walking his dog in Serangoon Central and OHMIGAWD, it was a big fluffy dog! I do mean big, and the fur was like, it made the dog look twice the size! That fluffy! And cos it was so black, I didn't have the chance to see its face. Only the pink tongue sticking out!

Bought the cake, and headed down to FP to meet the girls. Had Astons for dinner. The food was yumz. I had a Hickory BBQ Chicken with fries and salad as side dishes. YUMMZ. After dinner, we started to talk about stupid things. I like tonight. Enough of words, let le pictures do the talking. (;

My dinner- Hickory BBQ Chicken with salad & fries for sides. YUMMZ.

Ze cakee

Birthday girl. (':

<3

Pretty fountain.

Tonight was good. Gonna wake up early tmr for bible studies and worship practice afterwards.

I'm gonna try and be more positive from now.