CAAAAMP!

Judging from the title, you'd be dumb to not know that this post is entirely on a camp that i just got back from, say...2 days ago? Yeap. It was le GB camp! Being in the GB, i've had to attend camps EVERY YEAR without fail or my promotion would be delayed. Thank God i'm already staff sergeant (HEH) and this camp was say, 10% optional for me but since its the last camp i'm gonna attend with my batch, why not go for it? So yeah I was whining, and contemplating to sprain my ankle on purpose the day/night before camp because it was reallyyyyyy sian. Sian until cannot sian. But i still woke up the next day at 6.30am and dutifully put on my uniform and grabbed my camp bags and reported to campsite (church) at 7.45am SHARP. -____-

The camp went better than i expected it to be because most of the time, we-the sec4s-were doing our own thing cos the officers were always busy with the juniors. And by that, I also mean the sec3s. Soo, while they were doing things like DRILLS, we were slacking around like a boss, drinking cold water while they were standing under the sun AFTER A HIKE. >:D We didn't have any meal duties so that means no rushing during meal times to cleanup afterward, or rush down from any activities to prepare the food and have our mealtime reduced. (I'm a really slow eater....) AND we didn't have to squeeze and rush like mad dogs during bathing time cos we get to bathe later! Although suffered the aftermath of wind + cold water.... but yeah, really enjoyed my time this year. Perks of being a senior. Nyeheheh.

Day1: Touch Rugby. Glaring sun, thus the pose. (CLARE Y SO CUTE)

 

Day1(night): Teambuilding. What I'm holding actually has an egg in it. Dropped if from 4th floor and NO CRACKS. Team spirit: PASS

 

 

Day2: Just got back from hike (:

 Yup. Summary of my first 2days with the pics i really liked. (: nothing much on 3rd day though. Gonna attend another camp on friday! Its twinneh's church camp. Got a feeling I'll be dead tired by the end of this week...but oh wells, its the holidays! I should do myself some justice! Play hard, work hard. Right..?

#friends #food #fun

Yesterday was Mr Tham's solemnisation. Being one of the teachers i really admire and look up to, friends (R.O.A), clique decided to go to his big day. Went after church, met up with le twinz to get him a card and met up with the rest of the group later on.

Mr Tham's really sweet because after they said all the "I Dos", he sang a song to his wife, which was really sweet. Could see he was nervous but, it was cool. The hotel was damn high-class too. :O after the solemnisation ended, went to clarke quay to meet Rachel and Gek Ting for dinner.

Had initially decided on a sushi buffet but it was a bloody $31.00++ -_-. Hell to the no would i spend that much on a meal. I mean, it is an all you can eat buffet but there's no way i can eat up to over $31.00! So we walked around and decided on something else instead. But it was all good in the end.

After a filled tummy, decided to walk by the river (which is bloody nice btw,) and I got fascinated by all the lights. Took photos, and we went down to the pub areas too. The pubs had really nice and bright lighting and some shops had tables outside with little candles in candle holders for people to dine there. So pretty. Prolly sound like a kid right now but thats only because I haven't been to such places before! And I finally know how shisha (did i spell it right?) smells like. Didn't know that was shisha till Aloy told us.
"Can you smell that sweet fruity smell?"
"Yeah, is someone eating sweets?"
"No lah that's shisha. See those pipe thingy?"

OHH so thats shisha.

Took more photos of the lights and decos and there was a little stall that sells masks and jewellry. The masks were the ones that caught my eye. They were so pretty I wish i could take a photo of it. But photography wasn't allowed so....

It was really nice to spend a sunday night with the people I love and not receving any "Where are you now?" or "What time are you coming home?" messages and phonecalls from ze parents really made it even better. I know that I have a curfew and its really not safe for a tiny person like me to be walking around cos its not safe. So i try not to come home after 11. AND i texted le momz when I was on my way home. (: #responsible. Now that everyone's working and there's no more school, its really difficult to meet up with friends. Even with whatsapp and instant messaging, its not quite the same anymore.

All in all, it was a really nice night. (':

(/^o^)/

So nice!

Taking A Breather...

National exams finally over, got a part time job! Its kinda weird to not mug for anything anymore. The feeling of waking up every morning and plan a timetable for the subjects that has to be done mentally is gone and huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders. Going to poly next year means everything to me. I don't think I can make it for the big O's. I really don't have that kind of energy to keep me going anymore. Or maybe its because I'm getting too used to this free&easy lifestyle?

Class chalet tmr. Can't wait. Just a few thingy bothering me right now. Things like me being too big a coward to face my own fears and get over my paranoia. Its like this fear is eating me up from the inside, slowly devouring my flesh and crunching my bones, sucking me dry.

People write about how they swoon over boys and how boys just sweep em off their feet. But I wonder if any guy ever scared a girl to an extend she builds a wall around her to not let anyone in and to not let herself out? The enitre daryl thing bugged me for more than a year and I always get freaked out by people that show the tiniest resemblance to his personality. And then I shun that poor lad and end up hurting him. Close friends can be guys too but it really sucks when I realised that I've actually hurt the people that care a lot about me. And why? Because I can't face my fear. Because I'm too weak to. Because I got hurt.

Such a coward.

Tmr is the class chalet and I don't want to ruin it for everyone because the boy I hurt due to my selfishness is going to be there. And he is going to want answers. Answers that I cannot give because I don't know what to say. I may make this sound like a big deal and maybe a month or two I re-read this and flinch because I was so bloody stupid and immature. But I just feel like I have to get this off my chest and what better way to do so than to do it here? I really didn't mean for this to happen, everything just spiralled out of control.

Sometimes I look at the things I've done, and ask myself 'how much shit have I gotten myself into?' and the answer to that is: Enough to bury me alive. Maybe one day I can't take all this shit and put a bullet through my skull, someone will chance upon this and see why I had to what I did.