Update:

Hello! Oh man i just realised how screwed i am. School is starting in 2 frickin days and i am completely unprepared. I haven't changed my ezlink card to the tertiary ones, my bag is still undecided. AAND first lesson of the day would be pe and guess what? I have no idea what to wear for my pe kit and i have no sport shoes. I still need to get some stationary and lecture pads and all that. Yet what am i doing now?? Blogging in front of my laptop about how lazy i am and what a superb procrastinator i am too. -.- I would just love to give myself a middle finger if it helps.... maybe i really should start doing something about this huh... ):

But i just refuse to leave my room. Like literally. Everyday i'm just holed up in my room and flat on the bed. Reading, using my phone, basically just wasting my day away.

KAY SCREW THIS, I'm just rummage thru my bookshelf and see what i can find. And also my shoe cupboard and wardrobe. Hopefully i can fit into le sister's sport shoe and find something for my pe kit. (:



(Ugh who am i kidding...i just suck okay)

In case you missed our faces, taken when we were celebrating gt and hay's birthday.

How am i going to survive the next 4yrs without them sigh

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Update:

Hello blog, I have less than 2 weeks before i officially start school! And I'm feeling really nervous about it. ): again, because i don't see myself to be as pretty as the other girls in my class. I really feel like ugly betty plus, poly don't have uniforms so i'm really shaking on the inside....have never really saw myself as someone who would crumble under such minor problems. But as i grew older, i guess, i changed. But i'm trying to stick with one of my principles of life: Grades over looks. I don't like this me. I don't like how i feel so easily upsetted over things like that. I never used to care what bag i brought to school, and even when i went out with my friends, i never wrecked my brain over what to wear as hard as i am right now. ):

Don't wanna fill this space up with so much negativity but i guess i don't really have a choice. Is it weird for me to be saying that owning a blog is much safer than owning a diary? I know a blog is world-wide and all, but i really did try to keep diaries before. They always, always end up getting read by someone in the household. Ugh. And those childish diaries with locks and secret combinations? They work too well on me cos i end up forgetting the combination/losing the key. Damn.

Feeling really unhappy with myself. I can state 10 features about me which makes me really devastated till i feel like crying. Gonna keep those to myself before i burst into tears.....or if someone happens to stumble along and laugh at my insecurities. (Well, fuck you then.)

//Sidenote: I GOT MY SCHOLARSHIP!! Wheeee

Okay, onto a proper update about my life: Had zero days of work this week which is good in a way so that my slacking will be at its finest and i will have  p l e n t y  of time to myself. The downside, of course is that i have NO MONEY to earn. Yesterday i spent my day with le twinz shopping! Met at gardens for lunch then had charyl with us till about 5+. FEP was depressing depressing yesterday. So quiet plus i couldn't find anything nice. Not until i headed to ION and 313. Where i spent almost a hundred bux.......what did i buy?
-  Pair of red shorts
-  Manicure set
-  Pair of maroon jeans
-  A t-shirt
-  A pair of shoes.
About time i cleared my wardrobe. ): my uniforms are taking up a lot of space in my pathetic wardrobe. And gotta clear my bookshelf and my table and the drawers under my bed......damn i'm getting more depressed.

KAY I KNOW WHAT TO DO. Just gonna clear all the things stated above ^ and do some excersise. And when i've accomplished at least 2 things then i'll come back to blog.

THINGS TO DO:
1. Go to the gym/pool/park
2. Pack bookshelf
3. Pack table
4. Pack drawers under le bed
5. Pack wardrobe.